Best Year of my life Hands down.

This has been the best year of my life for many reasons, one being Camp and the other being CSU SQGLBT and Lutheran Campus Minitary. I'm getting ahead of myself a little bit lets go back to the start of 2011.... when this year started i knew i wanted to do something that would change my life or just make it better in someway b/c i was having a hard time at work and just not very happy at all. So in about March i got a facebook message from a family friend asking me if i wanted to work at camp over the summer in MN i was a little bit like no thank you but i applied and sure enough i was thinking i wont get the job its no big deal i will have another colorado summer. I think god had other plans for me i guess! I got a phone call from MN about going to Camp for the summer i couldn't believe it but i was over joyed to go to camp i couldn't wait!.

So Than in June i was ahead to MN till Aug! i was scared to death i didn't know anyone or even if people were going to like me or think i was a freak or something so i arrive to Camp Vermillion a few days before staff training and so i got to visit with the family friends that used to live in CO and i remember telling them how scared i was and how i was afraid that i wasnt going to fit in at all. Well they were like you will be fine and that people would love me no matter what. So Staff Traning started that saturday afternoon where we had worship service with everyone on site and i remember 1st meting this guy named KE who i liked right way b/c he had the same name as my younger brother back home. He was really cool and i also met JY she was soo fabulous i really enjoyed her. I felt right than and there that i was going to fit in just fine and that i no werries or anything it was going to be the best summer of my life!

I really enjoyed my summer in MN i made soo life long friends who i think are just fabulous and wonderful and i cried leaving going back to CO i didn't want to leave. When i returned from my summer i knew my life need a makeover right way so i started getting in involved in as much i could so i started going to Lamada meetings downtown for a bit and didn't get a good feel for it so i stoped going than in OCT i went to a Drag show hosted by CSU and it was amazing and fun and very classy or maybe thats not the right word for it. anyways i started talking to people afterwards they were really nice people i knew that i had to go a meeting at CSU that following week so i did and sure enough i was scared a little bit but it was fine in the end i made so cool friends and just loved it. also that same week i went to my 1st church service at CSU and loved it and made so fabulous friends.

I feel very blessed and thankful for this year and it will always be a part of me since i totally did things i never would done in years pasted. My goal for 2012 is still be a part of CSU and to well i say this every single year but it never gets old.. I hope to met someone fabulous but i don't want to get my hopes up for nothing one step at time. I know that 2012 will be fabulous if i allow it to be. I'm going to travel to New York at somepoint since i've never been there always wanted to go. I feel that anything is possible now its a new year and anything can happen! So i keep it fabulous and always look ahead no matter what. and i will be just fine.

Summer part 2

I'm still having a fabulous time at camp, enjoying every min of it and i've made soo many friends on staff and i think they are just amazing the 4th of july was amazing it was great to hangout with a great friend of mine she and i had soo many adventures around everywhere such as Duluth and the Twin Cites it was all wroth it in soo many ways at least it was to me. I really feel that i'm finally fitting in with the staff here my fears of not being able to fit in are totally gone!. Last Friday we had our Staff Meeting on the Water it was really nice to all be together having a moment just as Site Staff very fun enjoying the sun and all the people around me. And this weekend alone has been just great being able to hangout at Camp V with everyone that i just Love to pieces and never questioning what i do need to do or anything like that. is super nice. Plus my sister arrived on Site today got to pick her up at the airport and see her bright face and she is ready to get working.

Tonight i was hangout on the dock watching the Stars and just having a moment alone it was soo nice to just have a moment with god without anyone around me just chillin and than being joined by all my friends during my moment which add on to it. I've totally felt that the staff is really great full of great people with goes out say in every possible. and also i really enjoyed hangout eatting ice cream and laughing and talking about funny moments. its moment like that i will always remember.

I still have a tinny crush on one of the staff members but that is NOT at al important at all its something that i could care less about. I really excited for Harry Potter its going to be Fabulous we are having Harry Potter Week at Camp Vermillion so that could be fun since well harry potter is simply amazing in every way!..... Basically i love Camp soo much i really i'm going to miss it when i leave it.

God's Great Northwoods!

This Summer I'm not in Colorado i applied for a camp job! at Camp Vermillion in GOD's GREAT NORTHWOODS! and I just had my Staff Training where i met some very cool people who have become like "family" they are simply great! I'm learning so much about how god is present in each of our journey's of faith and i feel that in My Journey God is really now showing me that i'm just getting started and about to make a diffrence in someone life this summer as i begin to work in the Kichen at Camp. One of the 1st songs that i listened to on my way here was "Blessed Be Your Name by Tree63 it totally fit how i was feeling at the time when i left Colorado making me understand that This Summer will be a blessing and that i find myself truely blessed.

One of my highlights so far was doing this silent days where you could not talk to anyone around you it was just you and god one on one and i went for a walk on this road where i just prayed every mile of my walk for each person in my life in colorado and i came back to camp and sat by the lake and just looked out at the water and it begin to rain pretty hard and i started dancing in the rain feeling so happy and joyful as anyone would when it rains and this HUGE Raindow comes out and i just stop and look for like 45mins and it was that moment that i knew GOd had a reason for sending me to camp this summer and that reason is yet to be fortold to me and i can't wait to see what God has planned for me.

I'm really enjoying myself up here i'm just loving it more and more each day that i'm up here when i worked at Sky Ranch i would walk the Prayer Trail every morning to kichen and pray for each member of my family well they don't have a prayer trail at Camp Vermillion so i walk on the Dock and Pray for each member of my family and all my friends so its even better b/c its early in the morning and the water is so quiet but the sun will come up and make it SHINE!. Every nite of Staff Training we would have a Camp Fire Worship and would singing some pretty cool songs that would get you moving and my new favorite is Racial God! and so last nite the Whole staff went to a Fair in another town about 20mins away and Danced in the Street which was blocked off and did the moves for the song and we just totally enjoyed it. they played jessie Girl,Footloose,Born to be Wild, Spirit in The Sky, Drift Away, and many many others so would just do ramdom Dances and it was just one of these nites where i had wished all my friends were there with me dnacing along with. When they played Footloose i had a Flashback to my 21st where one of the places i went they played that song i got really into it and i had my dance moves small but last night NO one was making there dance moves small! so it was perfect.

During one of the Morning Mai's which morning worship at camp it was the morning of the NO talking and i couldn't find anyone and i finally found people sitting down the hillside and i started running and I fell the whole way down the hill and no one could laugh b/c they thought it was really funny and so did I, than that afternoon we played a group game called"who done it" basically the murder game" and the way i got out was falling down a hill lol" basically the staff seem to like me b/c it was the talk of the day.

So this summer is going to be filled with adventure and laughs and finding out what god has planned for me in my upcoming days! so like we say every worship" IT's GREAT TO BE ALIVE IN GOD's GREAT NORTHWOODS!

Soul Surfer

I just saw the movie Soul Surfer and i totally loved it!. It made realize that anyone can follow their dreams b/c anything is possible and for me i'm following my dreams this summer by trying something new and so excited about it and sad to leave colorado for the summer. I totally felt moved by the fact she over came something that many other people couldn't do.

Take my Breath Away.

This year has been gone by so quick at least to me it has, but it also brought some changes along with it for starters i started going to GLABT youth group every thursday night and it has been soo amazing and fun meeting some great people which is always a plus for me. I've also have had such a fabulous week this week i took some time off work to kinda breath and just be which has been super nice and i'm ready to go back to work after all i miss it kinda. I went to this Church in Denver called saints and sinners its such amazing place where they accept everyone no matter what which i find to be really cool and i'm gonna keep going to it as much as i can in March!. I felt right at home at this church after the sevice i said"ive finally found a church that gets me" so really i feel that its a good choice for me to keep going to it since i loved it so much. I also got to visit my little brother in denver as well and that was soo great to see him all happy but it kinda sad bc he his stuff all ready to come home with me and my mom so that i was hard to see. also my grandfather is not doing too well and that just breaks my heart in a million pieces. and i hope more anything in the world that he gets better.

so overall i feel that i'm a fabulous place after some rest from work i'm ready for anything that world has to give me no matter what.

2011

This year so far has been wonderful amazing.

January 2011

This January has been just crazy, i guess that's normal for every new year right for it to be just plan crazy. Things in my life are just all over the place and i just need to put my life back together again finding out what i can do make my job better and everything ele's should fall back into place at least i hope so. I just want good things to start happening so that i don't have to freak out all the time about just about everything so i think with a little bit of breathing and living each day without freaking out i should be okay.