Highlights of 2015!

Another year comes to end, some of my highlights of this amazing year start when i was still at school in Roswell New Mexico, It was the start of my spring semester and i was starting my brand new internship at the Fairfield Inn and Suties Marriott. I met some really amazing people through that internship which landed me a job at local Marriott Residence Inn in Colorado. So it was a major blessing for me to be able to work for such amazing company. Another highlight of 2015 was Graduation from Eastern New Mexico with a trade certificate in the business program. 

Another highlight for me was i discovered that i love taking pictures of different things in nature or around my community, I wanna keep that talent going so that i can get better at it. and i got a brand new bike this year which is amazing since i love to bike! and i needed an upgrade from the one i had before for 8years. I've also gotten the chance to travel some this year after i got done with school in July, i went to Boston to visit family which is always really fun for me since i love seeing my family. and visiting my grandfather and cousins as well. 

I started a brand new job at the Residence Inn Marriott near home, which is really fun i love my job it took me a while to learn it but know that i know it its been much more enjoyable for me. I've also made some really good friends at my new job who are really great people which its always nice to meet new people! 

I'm looking forward to what next year brings! its gonna a amazing year full of adventures!!!! Cheers to 2016! 

What i'm thankful for......

My family has a tradition at thanksgiving of going around the room and each person says what they are thankful for. In the spirit of that tradition i wanted to take time to say what i'm thankful for this year. 


One of the 1st things and most important things i'm thankful for is my family, they support me in everything i do, even if that means me moving to Roswell New Mexico for school for a year to continue to get my education. My family is an amazing group of people that i'm very lucky to have in my life. 


Another thing i'm thankful for is my year at Eastern New Mexico University Roswell, it was a very good experience for me to continue to get my college education and met new people and have had an amazing internship at the Fairfield which opened a door for me to work at the Residence Inn.



In honor of Veterans Day, i want to say thank you to ALL the men and women who have served our country. 

National coming out day 2015

Today is national coming out day, it's a safe day for GLBTQ people of any age. For me I didn't really have a coming out day .Instead I had a coming out process, which was very hard process.  I had limited resources to really know how to come out or what gay meant. I remember watching two different TV shows: one being Will & Grace where you had Will an openly gay lawyer living in New York and his group of fabulous friends. and another show was Queer as Folk that was about a group of openly gay friends living in Pittsburgh.
These shows were very important to me because it showed gay in an positive light. This predates the It Gets Better  project.
Overall my progress of coming out was a very positive one a lot of love and support from my family and friends.
I believe that the It Gets Better project needs to continue to make a difference for GLBTQ people who don't have support or are still in the closet, they need to have a positive outlet to feel supported and loved for who they are no matter what.

2013

 2013 has quiet a year! so much fabulousness has happened as far as i can tell even thought it's had it's ups and downs at the same time. I lost my job in january that was a major down for me although with time i've come to realized that there's nothing i can do to change it. I just applied for more and more jobs that i can get my hands on. On a brighter note Civil Unions Passed in Colorado March 21st 2013 i got see the bill get signed i understand its a small step into a bright future for the GLBT community and all people. I feel very blessed to have the family that i have who are accepting and fabulous! Growing up in Colorado for so long i think for the 1st time in my whole life i come to understand that things are changing for the better it just takes a whole of  a lot of time. 

So basically i'm ready for more history to be made in COLORADO! 

Spring!

 I LOVE SPRING! It's a time for fresh starts,anything is possible and nothing can get in my way of making a new start in life! My goal for spring is the following... 1. To keep eatting better so that i can lose weight and also to work out a lot more than i do so that i looked toned or least try to look it. 2. be kinder to people to not be as sassy as i am. 3.Stop trying to focus my time on boys i have more important things do with my time like focus on me for a little bit. 4.Make new friends in a area where i feel safe and accepted as me. A few weeks ago i went to a free from dance class that i felt changed my life in ways i never thought possible it opened my eyes and made me realize that i can do anything if i believe in me a little bit more. I was watching Glee Thursday and i when Kurt and Blanie were singing Come What May it made me think that someday i will find someone to make me truely happy and i can't wait to give them my heart. I kinda met someone but i messed it up b/c i never saw him but i'm working on it he is someone that i could see myself marrying or least dating he is so much like me. 


Well that's another whole story right there. I'm still looking for a new job and hoping that something happens with it. I just hate having nothing to do its killing me so much i've lost touch with myself i just hope that i find myself again which i'm starting too to say the least. I know that change is coming. I was watching Glee season 2 and crying soo silly right! Well i'm praying that something good happens to me i need something good to happen. I could use it! 

happeniss

I feel soo very happy in a way i never felt in a long time, or least in the last few years. i guess i needed find my true happniess i truely believe that i found it in ways i never felt possible! so one way is that i join a great group at CSU where i felt accepted and not judged in way. in the meetings i went to i felt like i belonged where as before i didn't feel l belonged anywhere in the world. so it's nice to feel accepted in a safe place where i can be myself.!

Best Year of my life Hands down.

This has been the best year of my life for many reasons, one being Camp and the other being CSU SQGLBT and Lutheran Campus Minitary. I'm getting ahead of myself a little bit lets go back to the start of 2011.... when this year started i knew i wanted to do something that would change my life or just make it better in someway b/c i was having a hard time at work and just not very happy at all. So in about March i got a facebook message from a family friend asking me if i wanted to work at camp over the summer in MN i was a little bit like no thank you but i applied and sure enough i was thinking i wont get the job its no big deal i will have another colorado summer. I think god had other plans for me i guess! I got a phone call from MN about going to Camp for the summer i couldn't believe it but i was over joyed to go to camp i couldn't wait!.

So Than in June i was ahead to MN till Aug! i was scared to death i didn't know anyone or even if people were going to like me or think i was a freak or something so i arrive to Camp Vermillion a few days before staff training and so i got to visit with the family friends that used to live in CO and i remember telling them how scared i was and how i was afraid that i wasnt going to fit in at all. Well they were like you will be fine and that people would love me no matter what. So Staff Traning started that saturday afternoon where we had worship service with everyone on site and i remember 1st meting this guy named KE who i liked right way b/c he had the same name as my younger brother back home. He was really cool and i also met JY she was soo fabulous i really enjoyed her. I felt right than and there that i was going to fit in just fine and that i no werries or anything it was going to be the best summer of my life!

I really enjoyed my summer in MN i made soo life long friends who i think are just fabulous and wonderful and i cried leaving going back to CO i didn't want to leave. When i returned from my summer i knew my life need a makeover right way so i started getting in involved in as much i could so i started going to Lamada meetings downtown for a bit and didn't get a good feel for it so i stoped going than in OCT i went to a Drag show hosted by CSU and it was amazing and fun and very classy or maybe thats not the right word for it. anyways i started talking to people afterwards they were really nice people i knew that i had to go a meeting at CSU that following week so i did and sure enough i was scared a little bit but it was fine in the end i made so cool friends and just loved it. also that same week i went to my 1st church service at CSU and loved it and made so fabulous friends.

I feel very blessed and thankful for this year and it will always be a part of me since i totally did things i never would done in years pasted. My goal for 2012 is still be a part of CSU and to well i say this every single year but it never gets old.. I hope to met someone fabulous but i don't want to get my hopes up for nothing one step at time. I know that 2012 will be fabulous if i allow it to be. I'm going to travel to New York at somepoint since i've never been there always wanted to go. I feel that anything is possible now its a new year and anything can happen! So i keep it fabulous and always look ahead no matter what. and i will be just fine.

Summer part 2

I'm still having a fabulous time at camp, enjoying every min of it and i've made soo many friends on staff and i think they are just amazing the 4th of july was amazing it was great to hangout with a great friend of mine she and i had soo many adventures around everywhere such as Duluth and the Twin Cites it was all wroth it in soo many ways at least it was to me. I really feel that i'm finally fitting in with the staff here my fears of not being able to fit in are totally gone!. Last Friday we had our Staff Meeting on the Water it was really nice to all be together having a moment just as Site Staff very fun enjoying the sun and all the people around me. And this weekend alone has been just great being able to hangout at Camp V with everyone that i just Love to pieces and never questioning what i do need to do or anything like that. is super nice. Plus my sister arrived on Site today got to pick her up at the airport and see her bright face and she is ready to get working.

Tonight i was hangout on the dock watching the Stars and just having a moment alone it was soo nice to just have a moment with god without anyone around me just chillin and than being joined by all my friends during my moment which add on to it. I've totally felt that the staff is really great full of great people with goes out say in every possible. and also i really enjoyed hangout eatting ice cream and laughing and talking about funny moments. its moment like that i will always remember.

I still have a tinny crush on one of the staff members but that is NOT at al important at all its something that i could care less about. I really excited for Harry Potter its going to be Fabulous we are having Harry Potter Week at Camp Vermillion so that could be fun since well harry potter is simply amazing in every way!..... Basically i love Camp soo much i really i'm going to miss it when i leave it.

God's Great Northwoods!

This Summer I'm not in Colorado i applied for a camp job! at Camp Vermillion in GOD's GREAT NORTHWOODS! and I just had my Staff Training where i met some very cool people who have become like "family" they are simply great! I'm learning so much about how god is present in each of our journey's of faith and i feel that in My Journey God is really now showing me that i'm just getting started and about to make a diffrence in someone life this summer as i begin to work in the Kichen at Camp. One of the 1st songs that i listened to on my way here was "Blessed Be Your Name by Tree63 it totally fit how i was feeling at the time when i left Colorado making me understand that This Summer will be a blessing and that i find myself truely blessed.

One of my highlights so far was doing this silent days where you could not talk to anyone around you it was just you and god one on one and i went for a walk on this road where i just prayed every mile of my walk for each person in my life in colorado and i came back to camp and sat by the lake and just looked out at the water and it begin to rain pretty hard and i started dancing in the rain feeling so happy and joyful as anyone would when it rains and this HUGE Raindow comes out and i just stop and look for like 45mins and it was that moment that i knew GOd had a reason for sending me to camp this summer and that reason is yet to be fortold to me and i can't wait to see what God has planned for me.

I'm really enjoying myself up here i'm just loving it more and more each day that i'm up here when i worked at Sky Ranch i would walk the Prayer Trail every morning to kichen and pray for each member of my family well they don't have a prayer trail at Camp Vermillion so i walk on the Dock and Pray for each member of my family and all my friends so its even better b/c its early in the morning and the water is so quiet but the sun will come up and make it SHINE!. Every nite of Staff Training we would have a Camp Fire Worship and would singing some pretty cool songs that would get you moving and my new favorite is Racial God! and so last nite the Whole staff went to a Fair in another town about 20mins away and Danced in the Street which was blocked off and did the moves for the song and we just totally enjoyed it. they played jessie Girl,Footloose,Born to be Wild, Spirit in The Sky, Drift Away, and many many others so would just do ramdom Dances and it was just one of these nites where i had wished all my friends were there with me dnacing along with. When they played Footloose i had a Flashback to my 21st where one of the places i went they played that song i got really into it and i had my dance moves small but last night NO one was making there dance moves small! so it was perfect.

During one of the Morning Mai's which morning worship at camp it was the morning of the NO talking and i couldn't find anyone and i finally found people sitting down the hillside and i started running and I fell the whole way down the hill and no one could laugh b/c they thought it was really funny and so did I, than that afternoon we played a group game called"who done it" basically the murder game" and the way i got out was falling down a hill lol" basically the staff seem to like me b/c it was the talk of the day.

So this summer is going to be filled with adventure and laughs and finding out what god has planned for me in my upcoming days! so like we say every worship" IT's GREAT TO BE ALIVE IN GOD's GREAT NORTHWOODS!

Soul Surfer

I just saw the movie Soul Surfer and i totally loved it!. It made realize that anyone can follow their dreams b/c anything is possible and for me i'm following my dreams this summer by trying something new and so excited about it and sad to leave colorado for the summer. I totally felt moved by the fact she over came something that many other people couldn't do.

Take my Breath Away.

This year has been gone by so quick at least to me it has, but it also brought some changes along with it for starters i started going to GLABT youth group every thursday night and it has been soo amazing and fun meeting some great people which is always a plus for me. I've also have had such a fabulous week this week i took some time off work to kinda breath and just be which has been super nice and i'm ready to go back to work after all i miss it kinda. I went to this Church in Denver called saints and sinners its such amazing place where they accept everyone no matter what which i find to be really cool and i'm gonna keep going to it as much as i can in March!. I felt right at home at this church after the sevice i said"ive finally found a church that gets me" so really i feel that its a good choice for me to keep going to it since i loved it so much. I also got to visit my little brother in denver as well and that was soo great to see him all happy but it kinda sad bc he his stuff all ready to come home with me and my mom so that i was hard to see. also my grandfather is not doing too well and that just breaks my heart in a million pieces. and i hope more anything in the world that he gets better.

so overall i feel that i'm a fabulous place after some rest from work i'm ready for anything that world has to give me no matter what.

2011

This year so far has been wonderful amazing.

January 2011

This January has been just crazy, i guess that's normal for every new year right for it to be just plan crazy. Things in my life are just all over the place and i just need to put my life back together again finding out what i can do make my job better and everything ele's should fall back into place at least i hope so. I just want good things to start happening so that i don't have to freak out all the time about just about everything so i think with a little bit of breathing and living each day without freaking out i should be okay.

Happy Holidays!

I just love Christmas, its one of my favorite holidays out of the many holidays that we have thought the year. some of my favorite holiday memories are spent with my family putting up the tree and putting up the lights on the house and also watching It's a Wonderful life and my personal favorite holiday movie ever:Home Alone which i know all the lines too which kinda bugs people so i don't do it very much anymore. Another favorite memory for me is seeing the Nutcraker in old town is will always be my favorite christmas plays.

Another one of my all time favorite christmas memories, took place at my grandma and grandpa's in SD it was soo much fun hangout with my cousins and just getting to be with family was always nice and wonderful all wraped into one. But over the years a lot of new memories have taken place like watching Love Actually or The Family Stone, or White Christmas. One year we were taking our christmas picture up in Rocky Mountain National Park and we cut down our own tree and we also took our christmas photo which i was not happy about but i got over it b/c looking back on it i thought the picture was really funny given we were all wearing Stanta Hats and everything lol.

my all time favorite memory of the holiday season is one year in SD we were all at my aunt and uncles house in RPC and my aunts parents were in town and we were making Gingerbread Houses and we were partered up with diffrent people in the family and i had my aunts mom who basically one of the coolest ladies i know and i really enjoyed making that Gingerbread house it was really fun and also singing Christmas Carols was such a blast since i loved to sing when i was younger i don't it much anymore since my voice changed.

So over all, i do really enjoy christmas.

Happy Holidays!

What I'm Thankful For....

I know its past thanksgiving, but its never too late to say what you're thankful for and i'm thankful for soo much this year, such as my friends they are people who are always on my side and make me laugh and smile and always are there to help me when i'm down they are simply fabulous people. Another thing i'm thankful for is my job which is amazing and i don't know what i do without it

My Story

In Honor of National Coming Out Day, i want to tell my personal story,My name is JRS am 21 years old and i come from a Very strong Christian Family with whom i love very much and i always thought i knew who i was i mean was the kid who dance around the house to the Pointer Sisters and singing with every single Song on the tape, and also the little mermaid and beaches you name it i sang along with it and i well once i got to about age 8 i thought something was not right i mean i felt i was not fitting in with people b/c i didn't like the same things and i was still listening to the little mermaid when all my other friends were listening to like Britney Spears and other music like that and i thought oh well its not big deal i like diffrent music so what its cool well i was hidding the fact that i thought i was gay since well it i thought it totally impossible i mean it couldn't be possible at least i so i thought so i made myself believe it was NOT TRUE so i lied to self and moved on with my life. Well fast forward to middle school where i went to a school that was REALLY unfit for me i mean i enjoyed my 1st two years i mean i had good friends who i felt i could get a long with and things totally fell part my 3rd year when i was picked on all the time and made fun of for everything that i said and did it totally put me in the dark where i felt worthless and it hurt me really bad so i ended up leaving that school for personal reasons and i finally realized after writing in my jounral every day about my time at the school and how i had such a hard time there i remember thinking OH My GOSH i am GAY and am really happy but i can't tell my family about it its going to really hurt them so i can't say anything to them about it so i kept from my family and my friends for 2years from age 14 to age 16 and it was very hard for me to keep something like this from my family since well i was so upset about it and i didn't want them to be mad at me or upset with me or i feel like i let them down but i knew in time they would understand. So the fall of my 10th Grade year of high school i knew it was time for me to tell my parents and so one day i had a talk with my parents which was one of the HARDEST TALKS i ever had with my parents and well i said "mom and dad i have something to tell you am gay and so sorry i waited so long to tell you its just that i didn't want to let you down or anything and i need time to deal with it 1st before i told you" and they didn't say thing at 1st but finally my parents said We love you and we totally support you and we are happy for you and it just made me feel so happy to finally tell them, than that same day i texted my three cousins who live in RC and my older sisters and they were totally understanding and i told them that they couldn't tell anyone but little did i know that my family talks lol. and i was at one point my 11th Grade year of high school, i had made a CD for a Guy that i liked and well he broke the CD right in front of me and i was really upset and came home that nite and wrote an email stating that i the world would be better off with out me which i was wrong to say that since it was not true at all i was just angry at what had happend to me but i would have gone that far with it. Also during my years in high school there was this show that i watched called Queer as Folk that was about gay men living in Pittsburg and there was this one character that stood out to me b.c he reminded me of me in so many ways the character's name was named JT and the show was about his coming out to his parents and his friends and it was bullyed at school and well it totally hit home for me and well this show really helped me understand me a whole lot better and allowed me to be okay with who was and to not let ANYONE take way my fabulous light! and also the movie MILK helped me be okay with am too. Anyways fast forwarding a little bit to NOW i am totally okay with am and i love life and everyone in my life and SO lucky to have such a Fabulous Family and Fabulous Friends who are totally supportive of me and always on my side no matter what. and plus i had my 1st date not too long go i see that things are going to look up for me since well god is with me through all it all. and another thing my friends at Church have been totally supportive of me and i remember being SO afraid to lose them if they ever found out and my friend KL told me "i knew all long" and she was totally cool with and so was everyone eles that i know at my church who are some of the greatest human beings i know! they are VERY FABULOUS!!!!!!

16years!

For 16years, i have had one of the best friends ANYONE could ever ask for she is amazing in every way possible she makes me smile more anyone eles i know and she brings out this light in me that no one eles sees that much. She is truely one of my favorite people in this world and i feel truly blessed to have her in my life. One of my favorite moments with RW would have to be when i was in high school and it had been years between Elementary and Jr High school well my 1st day of high school i remember walking in the door and she just stoped and looked at me and was like"your so tall" and i remember just wanting to laugh b/c well i finally found her again since it been so long since i've long since her. Well anyways fast forward to 2010 and we each other a whole lot more she is simply one of sweetest people i know and she will be important to me no matter what. She is amazing and fabulous and always there for me when i need her. so i really feel lucky to have her in my life since well i always thank god for her everyday and think how lucky i am to be friends with someone that long. our friendship is like the song "its A Wonderful World b/c she really makes my life more WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is amazing in everyway. RW I LOVE U!

California!

This Weekend i got to travel to one of my favorite places ever expect this time i got to visit my sister KS who lives in BCA! i had such a fabulous time i got to do many things i flow in on Thursday nite and came into to OKCA which when i got there i jumped up and down i was so happy to be In Cailfornia i was on top of the world!. I did the tour de fat in SF which was SOOO much fun i was so glad to do it in a fabulous city like SF so many laughs that day and also that nite i went to see VW which such a BLAST best show ever!!!!!!!!!!! it was filled with people and they were singing along with the songs which was cool and the band was fabulous and it was a soled out show i think at least it looked that way! it was outside and it was amazingly fabulous!

I really enjoyed hangout with my SISTER! and going to SF was amazing and also seeing BCA was really fun its such a great little town and also going to school with KS was really something learning more about god and noah's ark story is even better now that i actually understand it better than i did before. I really enjoyed it! also my sister has some really great friends who i thought were really great! they really fabulous people all of them no questions about it hands down they are fabulous! I really think she is lucky to have them in her life! I really am so happy that i came TO CA i really want to move CA someday in the future since well i really love it here! and plus it would a nice change from CO not that i don't love CO b/c i do! but am at a age where change is good! but i couldn't leave my job its too amazing although i could find something really fabulous! I had so many one liners that i can't believe half things i said. I will say this though SF guys really know how to dress i am just sayin! I am ready to come back TO FTCO but i think i see myself in CA!!!!

My highlight would have to be eatting Ice Cream at GD and also VW was really fun! overall it was the best Vacation EVER!! I have my sister to thank for everything without her none of this would have happend! now its back to my real life which will be kinda nice for a bit than i will want to leave again lol

Two Of A Kind!

We all have our jobs and the people we work with right well i have this friend that i work with who is CNA and she is leaving to do nursing and her name is LD! She is one of my favorite people at my job, she brings out the best in me and i think to some point that i bring out the best in her she and i met over a year a ago, on the stairway by the front lobby kinda of a funny story for a openning of a TV show or something,anyways she and i over a CRUSH I had over a another guy that our job and she came up to me and was Ok tell me the truth why is your face SO RED and i told her why and we came best friend ever since, and has brought A TON of Fabulous Joy into my life and she is the reason my nickname is "Sunshine" She and i are like Will and Grace or even better Carrie and Stanfard from Sex and The City lol. LD is my best friend she makes me laugh and smile all at the same time no question asked and i am really going to miss her a lot she is simply fabulous! and i wish her the best in life! One of my favorite memories of LD would have to be when i thought her the Bend and Snap which i hate to say it WORKS EVERY TIME anyways we were both laughing so hard i thought we are going to fall over at the same time, and i sure hope that she never forgets me since well i am never going to forget her at all she will always have a place in my heart no matter what!. I really think that she is going to make a fabulous nurse someday after all she is fabulous beyond words!

She is amazing and fabulous and funny and she is reason i LOVE going to work all the time she makes SO much better!

WE ARE FAMILY!

Nothing is more important to me than FAMILY! and one person really stands out and she is my grandmother who has thought me that i need to be brave in the world and to always let my light shine which sometimes can be really hard mainly since she is not doing too well right now, I keep having flashbacks to when i ended JR High and i was really scared about going to High School b/c i was miss treated in Jr high by a lot of people and my grandmother and i had such a nice talk about how everything is going to be fine and that i had nothing to werry about and she was right on about that b/c high school turned out to be really amazing for me, she is someone that i LOVED talking too about just about anything and i loved visiting with her when i got the chance to go visit BMA! Another really special time i had with my grandmother was in 2005 when my young brother was in the Hospital in RI and she and i were sitting outside the RH and we talked about what classes i was taking since i was high school and she wanted to know what i was taking and we talked about my friends i just remember feeling really happy to be her during that HARD time. and she would always say how close me and my cousin are and how happy it made her to see us together, which now i can see why. My Grandmother always had Faith in me and i always had Faith in her. Another special thing my grandmother would do is every year on my birthday she would call me up on the phone and singing to me Happy Birthday and than tell me how much i make her feel OLD i always enjoyed that and i will always remember it.

I love my Grandmother she is my HERO! and i love her with all my heart!